It’s your birthday today. This day last year, my husband came home very late and when he came back he made the children and I, all, laugh with the story of how he had to work late in the office. I hold him in my arms and felt the happiest woman on earth. I didn’t know that was the first night you two spent together.
Since that night, you have spent many nights together. I look back at all the weekends, all the nights he came late and think that he might have been with you. I look back and think that maybe all the times that he told me I was beautiful he didn’t mean it. Not only, you took him from me for the rest of my life but you also made me doubt my past with him, the only thing in my life that I was proud of.
I wonder what he will be doing for your birthday this year. He is so good at buying gifts. He is also very good at making birthdays special and fun. The thought of you celebrating together and him doing all of that for you is very painful for me. But even though you can do this in the open now, just know that this relationship will never be legitimate in my eyes. He turned his back to his beautiful children. You will never be able to know how hard it is for me to look at our children when they ask me why “daddy” has left.
A couple of weeks after your birthday, I will turn 40 and will be single for the first time in 21 years. I can’t escape from the fact that if he was still here, we would be planning something grand. We had talked about a big trip this year; I had been saving up for it. I can’t stop thinking that he might take you there. Ouch!
Anyways, I am a strong woman and will not let a person like you affect my life. This time next year on your birthday, whatever you are doing – together with him or not – my intention is that you will both matter a lot less to me.
Based on a real story I read the guardian.